It starts with a sudden shudder, rising from your toes and going up your spine and into your soul. There’s a quick, cold pain, right in your heart, and then it’s like you’re standing a step behind yourself. You’re just watching a movie, and your skin feels either too tight or too loose. You really start to know those big, awkward steam shovels and cranes on contruction would feel like if they could feel anything.
Then you start hearing it. It starts talking, and you can scream and shout all you want, but your body doesn’t hear you. Your arms and legs just follow orders that aren’t yours, and you can’t even fight it. The voice doing the talking doesn’t hear you either. Exept sometimes it does... Sometimes it’s just as aware of you as you are of it. And sometimes it laughs when you try to fight it.
Please! I don’t want to talk about this anymore.